Actually, it wasn't that bad. I cannot seem to bring myself to sit in Baba's room though and they have a block on the stairs preventing the usual access to the meditation room in Diamond House (I think they were putting up some new displays or something). Maybe another sign! - I always preferred tha...
We must have watched it at the same time, there is something very wrong with her whole demeanour. The acting and the false smiling, that cannot be right. On another note, I went to class on Sunday and duly feel asleep! Is that a sign? Anyway, the lady who gave the class (I actually quite like her), ...
Don't feel guity little lamb - it's cool. I understand only too well the need to vent from time to time! ;) Anyway, getting back on track with the thread ... I have given it some thought and I will give it another go. I guess when I say it, I mean a relationship with God, I will just have to try to ...
Hi all, Thanks for all your suggestions. You have given me a few things to think about that hadn't crossed my mind! I just read Alannas entry and cannot believe how much the BK life affected her as a child. I was about 12 when my parents got into the BK stuff, I have also often wondered what they te...
Hi all, I forgot how supportive and helplful you guys are with answering questions! Thanks for all the replies, I guess what I am asking is whether someone (me) can pick out the good that is in the BKs and use that to enhance my life. For example, I've never tried meditation before the BKs became pa...
Hi All, It's been awhile since I wrote on here, a lot has happened since, I have practically left the BK life behind and returned to my "normal" life. Problem is, there was a huge problem with my "normal" life - I was missing GOD! The BKs provided the idea that I had finally foun...
And tell the Dr what, ex-l? Am I going out of my mind here? A friend once told me that nutters don't know they are nutters, weirdly comforting. The only place to catch some zzzzzzzzzzzzz's is the couch with the lights and TV on! Flatmates are not curious yet! Wouldn't know where to start explaining ...
cannot bring myself to say it ex-l ... much less type it. Sorry, things are so dark now, even with the lights on it's just dark ... who knew all this was waiting for me!
What do you do when the BK illusion becomes just that and you end up with a whole lot of crap that you put to one side finally making a larger than life appearance ... screwing with your mind and life? My old dark friend is back with a vengeance, he feels betrayed that I left him for so long and now...
cannot believe you had a bet on! anyways, I was interested to know, are you an ex-BK by choice or did you do something to get extricated from the BKWSO? I am very curious about that one!
Well, Wednesday was disappointing - there were some good points that my group made re: helping the elderly and starting an open BK forum - but it did not feel like these suggestions would go far - I was hushed up a bit and given the "look" when I mentioned things like having a culture of i...
The talks did take place on Bank Holiday Monday and will continue next Wed ... There was a brilliant turn out and people actually spoke about quite a lot, there was not enough time though even though the day was very long. I heard that there are going to be more of these and they are seriously consi...