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exbkmember

Re: Where to go with all the disappointment?

13 Apr 2012

Well done Marley. Yes, it is best to stay away from them if they are coming to your dreams still. Dadi Janki and my centre-in-charge were frequent visitors to my dreams and in one very vivid dream Brahma Baba tried to drown me, nothing very benevolent about that! I was told by centre in charge that ...

Re: Self-Esteem Issues: The Problem Behind All Problems?

13 Nov 2011

I do not think the time we gave to being part of BK group was wasted. If we went in with good intentions then I believe that counts for a lot. You cannot live BK life without developing certain strengths of character. We lived the life until we had learnt whatever we needed to learn there. I still f...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

13 Nov 2011

On the financial side, I think I broke even with my BK connection, I did give them loads of money but someone who perhaps realised this and maybe worried about bad Karma helped me out by putting me in touch with someone who saved me lots of money after I left them. The meditation and feeling of belo...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

11 Nov 2011

Hijack away, lol. I have no ownership here. I am just visiting. The BK part of my life had some positive effects and left me with some issues but no more so than the rest of my life. I thought it was hell prior, during and after BK experience, so it did not have a major impact really. It will be nic...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

09 Nov 2011

I remember in BK life I often got blessing cards that spoke of honesty being my strength or salvation. Honesty has always been one of my core values and I always want to believe that others are being honest (although I have a be prepared for the worst whilst hoping for the best sort of an outlook). ...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

08 Nov 2011

Thanks Shanti As far as I could tell all the core and longer standing members of the center I was attached to were mentally and emotionally very unstable. Visitors from other centers and senior speakers seemed much the same too. Maybe that's why I felt like I was amoung kindred spirits :D. Any sane,...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

06 Nov 2011

I remember one of the first things that really disturbed me was seeing picture of Brahma Baba. From the first time I saw it I got an unpleasant vibe from it, I later had same reaction to seeing a picture of Mama. I was quite open about this at times and again I was told that, as they were pure and p...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

06 Nov 2011

I have had many different doctors and all of them have been close to useless. I did join a 12 step program for nearly 8 months and lost all the excess weight while in it but was in the worst emotional state of my life by the end of it. Having experienced 12 step groups, I found them very similar to ...
exbkmember

Re: Meditation and Orgasm

06 Nov 2011

Meditating started out good but in the end just the thought of it would send me to sleep. These days I am sad to say just the thought of meditating makes me uncomfortable. Orgasms on the other hand are great fun ;).
exbkmember

Re: Another BK suicide - open letter to Jayanti

06 Nov 2011

Hmm, I for one joined BKs because I felt suicidal and had done so for years. BK life was a desperate attempt at finding help, finding peace, finding belonging. I came with a tone of baggage and many others I met are the same. People do not turn their back on old life and family unless they already h...
exbkmember

Re: Meditation and Orgasm

05 Nov 2011

Everything I have said is true. I certainly went off the rails and am still off them 6 years after leaving. My story is posted by Admin as a quotation in ex-BK classic posts forum BK member for five years . Yes Asperger is a form of high functioning autism. I had a very unpleasant and isolated youth...

Re: Confession as a tool of enculting within the BKWSU

05 Nov 2011

Yes, I heard the center head used to read them. I wrote a few but stopped when i was told this.
exbkmember

Re: Meditation and Orgasm

05 Nov 2011

When I first joined BK, I had great meditations but after 5 years I would fall asleep almost instantly at the thought of meditation. Being in Madhuban mostly triggered my bi polar to go in to a huge low. The energy in that place was powerful and I still miss it sometimes but there was a dark twist t...
exbkmember

Re: BK member for five years

05 Nov 2011

Hello, I am Laura that is my post on what it was like for me being a member for 5 years. I am glad it has been helpful to others. I remember writing it was a very emotional but healing experience for me. It took me a long time to get over leaving and the realization that I had been so manipulated by...
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