Your analogies are quite succinct, Pink ... never thought of it that way. To practically change the dynamics is the answer I think, as you said. I am starting to feel I can live that fuller life; then sink back without even realizing it. I guess if they believe this is really God, then they think, a...
I have connected with a Brother recently who is in Gyan for 24 yrs. We met in Madhuban and visited while in the States. He knows how much I have gone against the mainstream and caused some issues, although he told me that it appears if "they ignore it, it (you) goes away; if you give it any cre...
The one person I have stayed in contact with for years seems to have found an acceptance for where she is at now. On the outside, she seems happy. I was with her in Madhuban a few times, and in fact we visited Didi Nirmala a few times together. But it seemed to me, anyway, that it was more of a resi...
The price was very high for this brave, older CC sharing from the heart ... perhaps to help herself as well as others. "Detach with love" has been around for so long in other 12 step programs, and different from the BK detachment. Detach from the enabling, detach from the emotional difficu...
Big Mohini thinks too much laughing is not good and she attempts to stop it ... that, along with hugging if she spots it. I am not from Australia, but from the US. For a good many years, I roomed in Gyan Sarover with many Australians and have kept up friendships over the years. I found myself very c...
It truly is outrageous ... I was emerged with many BKs into a discussion of this re: a BK who left. When I heard all the comments of status, how special they felt, how sad for the one who left as she will be a servant to another, their elevated sense of virtuousness was nauseating. There was care an...
This particular one was for BK's only, however, I've done very many workshops and retreats for both BKs and non-BKs throughout the States. You've hit another nerve here, ex-I, I remember a few years ago, due to personal issues, I was needed elsewhere and wasn't around any BKs. I felt alone in a worl...
ex-I.. I think I should have addressed both you and Pink Panther separately...please see above note...very new at this and not sure how to do this right.
Yes, Pink Panther ... I, too, at Gyan Sarover would go high on that hill where no one else seemed to go; or at Pandav Bhavan just outside the hall, again, where others were not. I tended to avoid those crowds. At first, I thought I just don't like crowds ... hahaha ... can you imagine?? Being in Mad...
Very good point. I guess I was put off by the response and instead of asking those questions in the way you describe, ex-I, instead continued to pursue the "justice of it all". I have come to believe that there is no fairness, or justice, just their decisions without question or any sort o...
As per Sandoc Kumar's post, I confronted a center-in-charge re: another BK who "gave their bones" and is sick and now discarded back to his family while another is kept safely from harm with ongoing BK care. I was told to look at my sanskars, karma and that I did not know the whole story. ...
Stopping AV and have not been struck dead yet. Actually, I felt more connected to both this world and whatever is out there by sitting by the ocean at 4 am; lack of sleep has such a negative effect on health. How does one feel so guilty and "wrong" by not following the Maryadas ... what co...
Thank you Pink Panther...I more fully understand what you said now about "un-finding yourself". I am currently developing something I was told not to focus on as a BK...since we are "spiritual workers and not social workers"....and it feels good. I am also re-discovering a spirit...
Thank you ex-I ... that is a good starting point. I never before looked at it as a perversion; but that makes the most sense to me now ... I was starting to feel there is no God; I could not even feel the sense of awe in the God that I knew all my life, or if that was even real anymore ... if it eve...