04 Aug 2007
Bhakti gives sorrow, whilst knowlegde gives happiness. Bhakti is like dark night of ignorance where there is no certainty of anything, but only superstition, Bhakti is full of fear. To have knowledge maybe is not only to receive information, but to feel this knowledge is true, to have the certainty. It is like the day when one can see things. In the night they are still there, but because there is no light we don't see.
That's why we wonder in search and are desperate, because light does not come out of our own eyes to see things. Knowledge won't come in our own mind to realise. Light will come from external source, the sun (of knoweldge). I will know when i come to know, when i learn. Then if still in the light of the day, people prefer keeping eyes closed, denying to see, and bumping onto objects whilst walking, then in this situation they will seem strange to others. Still they may cry that there is no light and blame the sun that why did it not rise.
The way to escape the competitive nature of human of who knows better and who is better is to put things on common ground. If there are many human beings in the world and all of them show their power and opinion then they clash in some point. There may be no way to know everything, and there is no need, but it is different than to know that there is, it exists an answer, there is some reality that can be known and maybe one day i will come to know. Rest is like lazyness. Nothing can be know, thats it. OK finished. It is like lack of curiosity, lack of conviction that when i come to know, some supersensial pleasure comes out of it.
We don't need know every detail, but some basic principles that will put in order our world, some keys that will lock many doors, such kind of knowldge that will help us realise things on our own, churn on our own, some recipe and painkiller that can work in all cases for all diseases.
Like it is said in the Gita that you don't know your own births i come to tell you about them. Now forget whatever you have studied and listen to me only and i guaratnee...you know, to put your trust in something that can reward your trust. We don't desire reward from the stone idol, because he may give the best stones. That is' why if nature of god is soul then he gives benefit to the soul. Then he does not say each ones own births and role, but narrates some principles, practices, hints how to find out for ourselves, if we like to, but why not, what is more important to know than my own history, past, present and future.
It is said in the beginning even Bhakti is satopradhan and gives happiness. It is Bhakti of only one. Then when Bhakti disintegrates and becomes worship of many - clash may be coming as to which Bhakti is the best, why Bhakti differ and mind starts wondering to this and to that. Then also knowledge is initially satorpadhan and passes through stages.
Search and wondering and questions in the mind can stop when one realises who is the highest on high, this one that there can be no one higher than him with such conviction that no one can come and shake this position and take his seat in my mind. It is like to reach some point, some final destination. Then also if we are put on common ground of comparison by only one criterium that we are all children. we are all creation, there is one creator, then we can be saved from showing off our own opinion.
Search and clash can stop when we realise our own selves, position and seat in this drama. There is now clash because many are still fighting to claim the No. 1 position. no one likes to accept himself lower. If there is the possibility to know what is my part, without jealousy then one can play it well. Like in the race, after the finals there is some peace. It is clear who became No 1, no 2. Rest should accept defeat. But is is also a fair play that there is no reason to complain. He is better than me is not to bring about feeling of inferiority. It is a variety play and no one can play my part better than me. Ask a king to work carpentry he won't do. Everyone will reach their full potential. Maybe it is some sense that for myself i can find the answers that i need answered, i'll find some peace of mind with myself. I'll find my place that i always had, that i now search for it, where i feel most comfortable.