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Sounds familiar ... another country, another individual, same story
Sounds familiar ... another country, another individual, same story
Thomas wrote:So I was thinking, wow what a great effect and my teacher told me, that I am a special soul.
My teacher was very strict, and there was no sex allowed, he always said when you are horny take a cold shower! He said you are not the body only the soul. So in this time I was fully denying my body and feelings like anger, hate or jealousy. I had to practise virtues, starting every morning 6 o clock with morning meditation in the center. Writing the words of the following lecture in a book, cause I was called a student.
This lecture came from a holy woman from India, she was like a channel for the divine words of Baba the suprem soul, preparing you to become a pure soul. Because then you will come to the Golden Age. They always influenced everybody, that in the year of 2000 the world cycle will be finished and only the choosen ones will come to the Golden Age.
I was not allowed to read any books or scriptures, or listen to any other music which is not from Brahma Kumaris. So I was selling all my old Rock and Blues Records, selling all my books, because this was all Maya, illusion and bad energy. On one hand it was good cause in that time I was reading Castaneda, Crowley and Timothy Leary, trying all kinds of drugs for to get a new consciousness. So I stopped smoking, drinking alcohol, eating meat, taking drugs..... I also stopped to make my psychedilic music in my session band. I left all of my old friends and wanted to become a pure soul....
By the time I was so much influenced that I went in morning at 4 o clock and also at the same day to the evening meditation. I renovated also there the center, because I had no job.
The students had to write every hour the time of meditation - soul connection - in a chart, the best chart was published in the center for the others.
I was only alowed to eat in the center or to prepare my own food. I remember how hard it was for my mother that I did not eat any of her lovley cooked food, when I was invited by her. It was only allowed to wear white cloths and not wear any leather cloths.
I remember once I wanted to have a walk with an older Sister, but then my teacher said to me, that I should only walk with male persons. So in this way I was fully supressing my sexuality, because my aim was to come with them to Mount Abu, where the headquarter of Brahma Kumaris was. So after not even one year I came for my first time to India. Staying only in the Brahma Kumaris Ashrams.
My Indian Sitar teacher was my help to come out of the sect. To learn music was stronger, than to become a holy soul.....So music saved me......
After many years I met this meditation teacher from Brahma Kumaris in the park. He was asking me, about my spiritual practise. I told him that I am just living in the here and now. And I just showed him the beautiful ducks swiming on the lake and the blooming trees. He only laught about me, and said that I am lost in illusion. But I am so much happy to see GOD now in everything. So all the time when I was in this different sects music was my healer. Music never left me.
I thank GOD that I am in no sect and with no Guru.
I have a nice wife and following the nada Yoga, the way music. So birds are my Guru, or the whispering of a creek, the wind in the trees, or a children face. I just trust in life and love.