asha wrote:Is there any relation between Astrology and God? Can anyone tell me how Horoscope and God are related to each other?
Do the stars decide our future?
I have been living in Gyan for 8 months. Before that I was firm believer of horoscope (~Astrology) but at this point of time, I am not feeling to believe in that. However, two or three times things said by astrologers are proved true. What should I do? Should I go for each and every single thing to see the astrologer that I was used to do before or leave the mental block that I have been created in my mind that stars decide our future?
Please provide me the pious way to think so that I can live my life happily without any doubt.
It has taken a couple days to think about where you are coming from. I have some experience with astrology of different kinds. I have seen incredible results from a Japanese woman who practices an esoteric Chinese astrology. Since she told me I am a very high-class soul, i.e. good constellations, I never doubt myself and just go forward with whatever I sense is the best direction. It was
my interpretation. My wife and others in my life have rejoiced to see me more forward, more fully myself.
Before I was BK, pukka, following for more than ten years all BK customs and systems, and let me tell you, learning to follow someone else's customs and systems is
very different to learning to trust one's own judgment.
Do you want to be a follower or master of your own life? Master means listening to your
own voice, hearing the unique dialog of all the forces and voices inside yourself that create your life experiences.
As BK, we are taught, make the
intellect stronger with the help of Godly knowledge and Yoga meditation. Become more loveful and balance law and love.
Actually the BKs are the souce of many pious thoughts. The Sisters can speak for an hour or longer, such uplifting words.
But who will listen to me? Are my words, my story, important enough to be heard? All the way to the depths of my own heart?
If I cannot express my deepest dreams and desires to myself, let alone to another, I can never use my own powers, which may be adequate to fulfill myself.
Learning to think the right thing, wanting to think and feel and act the right way, a peaceful Godly way, I--this is my personal experience now--I suffocated other parts of my personality, so that they were crushed like flowers in a vise.
I am beginning to learn to better listen to my own voices.
The BKWSU would teach us to listen to the voice of God. And in the BKs, we learned to hear the voice of God by listening to Murli read by the Sisters in the morning, and then by meeting Avyakt BapDada face-to-face. That was my life, to always have Baba's words in my ears, to have him as a friend and teacher and parent and so on.
"Why does my voice sound so weak?" I wondered as the years went by. "Why don't I have a stronger personality? Why do I have dreams where someone seems to be endangering me, yet I cannot speak out, cannot tell them 'Stop! You're frightening me! I don't like that!'
I left the BKs after several years of self questioning. Today, when I speak, I hear the sound of my voice resonating in my throat. With my own voide, with my breath as I let the weight of my ribs sagging under gravity help to empty my lungs, I can comfort myself, even while saying no to someone, while risking their ill-will. I can choose to feel my continuity: that I will still be here, with or without his approval.
There is a direct way of feeling onself through one's own body weight, through one's own bones. They way we say 'I feel it in my bones.' It is something deep. Or 'I feel it in my gut.' Actually the gut has its own nerve bundles that make their own independent estimations of how to regulate activity there. The brain and the Brahma Kumaris would like to control everything, some of our functioning is better left to our unconscious.
I believe we need to let the doors to our unconscious mind open, so that all the power within can begin to flow out. Love, humanity, warmth I believe peopel (myself certainly) have ways of walling off inside as a protection against risks, to be able to live while feeling hurt inside. All life has hurts, some which are more than it is possible to bear, yet we bear them!
Removing the walls that prevent me from, for example, bursting into song, or dancing with joy at odd times--it is a work of developing one's inner trust, facing and healing inner wounds.
No 'ism' believer such as a Brahma Kumari can help with this process, because in the case that it is 'ism' against individual, the Brahma Kumari will always tell you what their Baba says you should do. This practice, as I say, ended up suppressing my inner voices, which had been wanting and needing much that lay outside what the BKs approve of, yet are central components of a healthy life.
For example, to be detached from family. Why would we not touch and cuddle each other, as even cows, dogs and cats know to do? God gave us the love of our families that brought us to this point. Why should we believe in renouncing that love?
I don't know, but the Brahma Kumaris can speak very well about the dangers and harms of attachment. It is pious talk. It harms when it turns a mother away from her boy or girl who absolutely needs cuddly affection, touch and reassurance, and needs the security of a loving available parent.
One the other hand, some people feel they are made their lives beautfiul through the BKs. It is a personal decision, therefore impossible to answer in abstract. It was good for me then, for helping me to find the woman who is now my wife. The time for me to follow their words blindly (while thinking my eyes were open!) is past. Good luck with finding freedom from doubt. Doubt is good if it teaches when to move slowly. Doubt has no doubt saved your life many times. Just to live happily, or do you want a creative life, too?