because.parmeshwar wrote:"Did you have any meditational experiences, visions etc?"
No ... Never.
Amazing. How disappointing. And yet you still stuck it out for years? Did you ever teach the course?
You see, there's another angle on the whole BK experience. When you are in, no one really expresses honest sentiments about what's going on in their life or experience. There's a strong pressure to confirm and say the right thing.
It's like how they often claim to experince "bliss", or be blissful. Even after years, I had not a clue what that meant. I would imagine "bliss", rather than just happiness etc, to be something as strong as a good orgasm (but with no come down afterwards). I cannot imagine how one might experience constantly, or even for half an hour. I have a feeling people often described their non-experiences in ways that made them sound like they were having experiences (after leaving, I've had people who did admit, like you, that they never experienced anything despite reporting it).
In years, I only ever had a handful of strong or rationally inexplicable experiences; generally while teaching the course/meditation, or leading a group meditation from the guddhi, which is what makes me tend to accept that I was being used as a channel, rather than doing it myself.
One hangs on, hoping for something wonderful or even pleasant, blaming oneself for it not happening.
You would think if it was a simple, mechanical-like process they promote, i.e. 'think this, connect up like that, have an experience', everyone could be having the same experience reliably each time.
I am not disrespecting you nor your experiencing but, rationally, I'd have to question whether it would have been any different if you'd just done some a simple Yoga breathing or 'mindfulness practise' like the Buddhists teach. Without a doubt "just sitting" is beneficial. So too is getting up at 4am or 6am and getting yourself prepared for the day before everyone else gets up. Many successful business people (and other religions) do and say precisely the same thing, without adding any god spirit.
Likewise, rationally, I'd have to question whether your practise really had any effects over external factors like the weather, or whether that was just confirmation bias (i.e. we saw things we wanted to, and ignored things that did not fit the model). Plenty of "yogyukt" BKs would miss planes, have car accidents, being attacked (even killed), lose money etc ... (which, of course, would be downplayed as "clearing bad karma"). The BKs win both ways; something good happens it's proof; something bad happen, it's your fault; bad karma.
But, just to rewind, I'd guess that most BKs still have some kind of experiences doled out to them in order to keep them hooked. It just doesn't seem like they were in control of them, or making them happen.
How can we explain the mechanism by which they happened, especially as they often happened at random times, i.e. not only while sitting in meditation?