When i again realised that PBKs are no better than BKs, and the whole Advanced Knowledge is a trap, i realised my folly and left the PBKs
It is said that "Nischay buddhi vijayanti, sanshay buddhi vinashanti".
After 1976, some BKs lost faith in Baba (sanshay mein aa gaye) because Destruction did not take place as mentioned in the Murlis but then it was revealed through Shankar that it was about the Destruction in the Yagya itself, and thus it was proved that the words of Baba were misunderstood. This is also happening in Advanced Knowledge where PBKs are losing faith because of misunderstanding the clarification of Murlis and Avyakt Vanis given by ShivBaba.
remembering God in my own way
It is only seen in Bhakti marg that people remember God in their own way.