Om Shanti ,
I would like to share with you all my stay in India, because it is also nice to share experience as well as opinions. Maybe it can give another sight or angle on what the PBK are and who this ShivBaba is.
When I come back to India, it feels like I come back home, the minute I enter the gate of the Delhi centre I am received in such a natural way, no effusion, smiles, as if I just had gone out for a few hours and came back. Then very quickly I take the smooth rhythm of Indian life. Sleeping on the floor, sharing the room with another 5 or more, cold water in a bucket to wash ... nothing matters, it is all so natural. Even for food there is detachment.
The life is so smooth there, the fact that the interactions mostly happen only with Sisters (and the Brothers might find it is the same for them), it is very restful, without ambiguity. The Sisters are very pure, an innocence we only would be able to find in the 19th century in the West. The result of their purity is natural benevolence; there heart is full of spontaneity, natural respect and lightness. They also have their own Maya to face, but it seems to me that their purity give them a good spring board (and the understanding of the Indian culture) to come nearer to Baba. So for me it is a big deep breath of fresh air.
Meeting Baba was very interesting, he is not the motherly sweet loving personage of the past, he is now the Father, and it is definitely another type of role. Whichever way he works with his attitude or in a subtle way, it feels like he has put in the open a few useless cobwebs, which I definitely had to swipe away if I want to move on. I was with another Sister, we asked a lot of questions, but they don’t seem to fit in this forum. The only thing I can say it is that the second of the eight (Ashta Dev) has been revealed, she represents the candra vansh because she plays the mother part, and I think she will play a major role in the future. Baba being Yogeshvar, she is Yogini.
Another point I wanted confirmation about, is the idea that partly, Dharamraj will be the suffering we will endure as we will be torn away from our attachments. I had read or heard somewhere, or churned about it, and that makes sense. We don’t realise how much we are attached to the things around us, people, but also objects, our opinions, the image we have of ourselves and we want to show to others etc. everything is attachment.
I just can imagine that at the end, this is what is going to hurt the most, we are going to be totally stripped of our own self, or what we think our own self is, something to do with ego and body consciousness. And the only way out it seems to me, is now to connect to the main for as long as possible, and to purify our self from every types of illusion (everything) we have, all the multiples veils between me and reality, me and God. Ultimately, there should only be God and me. The second part of Dharamraj is a sort of tribunal, the Supreme Court, where we will have to face our mistakes; that I have difficulties to figure out ...
There is definitely a different atmosphere in India and England, and this time even more than before, it struck me. When I arrive in India, I immediately feel more relaxed, more myself and carefree. To be soul conscious is much easier. This time I realised that back to England, everyone is self conscious, very much into showing the outer self, and because I am too sensitive to the vibrations surrounding me, I could nearly read it by feeling my own self, a mixture of ego, ill-at ease, comparing ... I think in the West, with the obsession with individualism, we have lost all sense of self-respect and what have we gained? We have to constantly prove ourselves in front of the world, because we don’t exist any more as part of a group, with a specific role.
In India, a woman is happy when she is getting married, not because she is going to have a husband, but because she is going to become a wife. This is all about harmony as a part of a whole, and this only works when the whole group has the same philosophy of life. As individuals asserting themselves as separate from the group, it is logical, that it multiply the potential for clashes. If our existence is in harmony with the group, and we accept ourselves as a part of the whole, then there are fewer reasons for clashes. This seems to me where freedom is, to stop focusing on the self, my needs, my rights, my opinions etc. and just think at a higher level, where we act for the well being of the group. There is no more solitude, depression, less anger, frustration etc. This is I think what I feel in India, a sense of freedom, acceptance, spontaneity, this is wonderful.
I would like to share with you all my stay in India, because it is also nice to share experience as well as opinions. Maybe it can give another sight or angle on what the PBK are and who this ShivBaba is.
When I come back to India, it feels like I come back home, the minute I enter the gate of the Delhi centre I am received in such a natural way, no effusion, smiles, as if I just had gone out for a few hours and came back. Then very quickly I take the smooth rhythm of Indian life. Sleeping on the floor, sharing the room with another 5 or more, cold water in a bucket to wash ... nothing matters, it is all so natural. Even for food there is detachment.
The life is so smooth there, the fact that the interactions mostly happen only with Sisters (and the Brothers might find it is the same for them), it is very restful, without ambiguity. The Sisters are very pure, an innocence we only would be able to find in the 19th century in the West. The result of their purity is natural benevolence; there heart is full of spontaneity, natural respect and lightness. They also have their own Maya to face, but it seems to me that their purity give them a good spring board (and the understanding of the Indian culture) to come nearer to Baba. So for me it is a big deep breath of fresh air.
Meeting Baba was very interesting, he is not the motherly sweet loving personage of the past, he is now the Father, and it is definitely another type of role. Whichever way he works with his attitude or in a subtle way, it feels like he has put in the open a few useless cobwebs, which I definitely had to swipe away if I want to move on. I was with another Sister, we asked a lot of questions, but they don’t seem to fit in this forum. The only thing I can say it is that the second of the eight (Ashta Dev) has been revealed, she represents the candra vansh because she plays the mother part, and I think she will play a major role in the future. Baba being Yogeshvar, she is Yogini.
Another point I wanted confirmation about, is the idea that partly, Dharamraj will be the suffering we will endure as we will be torn away from our attachments. I had read or heard somewhere, or churned about it, and that makes sense. We don’t realise how much we are attached to the things around us, people, but also objects, our opinions, the image we have of ourselves and we want to show to others etc. everything is attachment.
I just can imagine that at the end, this is what is going to hurt the most, we are going to be totally stripped of our own self, or what we think our own self is, something to do with ego and body consciousness. And the only way out it seems to me, is now to connect to the main for as long as possible, and to purify our self from every types of illusion (everything) we have, all the multiples veils between me and reality, me and God. Ultimately, there should only be God and me. The second part of Dharamraj is a sort of tribunal, the Supreme Court, where we will have to face our mistakes; that I have difficulties to figure out ...
There is definitely a different atmosphere in India and England, and this time even more than before, it struck me. When I arrive in India, I immediately feel more relaxed, more myself and carefree. To be soul conscious is much easier. This time I realised that back to England, everyone is self conscious, very much into showing the outer self, and because I am too sensitive to the vibrations surrounding me, I could nearly read it by feeling my own self, a mixture of ego, ill-at ease, comparing ... I think in the West, with the obsession with individualism, we have lost all sense of self-respect and what have we gained? We have to constantly prove ourselves in front of the world, because we don’t exist any more as part of a group, with a specific role.
In India, a woman is happy when she is getting married, not because she is going to have a husband, but because she is going to become a wife. This is all about harmony as a part of a whole, and this only works when the whole group has the same philosophy of life. As individuals asserting themselves as separate from the group, it is logical, that it multiply the potential for clashes. If our existence is in harmony with the group, and we accept ourselves as a part of the whole, then there are fewer reasons for clashes. This seems to me where freedom is, to stop focusing on the self, my needs, my rights, my opinions etc. and just think at a higher level, where we act for the well being of the group. There is no more solitude, depression, less anger, frustration etc. This is I think what I feel in India, a sense of freedom, acceptance, spontaneity, this is wonderful.