Thank you Joe for your response, and sympathy
..I saw my post yesterday night, than by today it was gone..
Well, i will re-write it again but it will be shortened since i don't have all day here.
First, i would like to say my overall experience with both BK's, and PBK's has been quite positive unlike most people on this forum..My deepest sympathy, and my heart goes out to those who had to suffer all the abuse while on this path. I personally never got too involved with BK's (call it my luck) since we always lived 100's of miles away from the center, and moved around quite a bit due to my dad's job. My contact was limited to the 7 day course and maybe a few times after that..I never even got a chance to visit the holy place Mt. Abu even till now.
So here it goes..Once upon a time, which i vividly remember about 15 years ago when i first came into this Gyan i totally fell for everything the BK stood for like- Gyan, dharna, lifestyle. For the first time in my life i felt so much peace in my life. Whenever our family went to the center i was pulled in a different realm unlike the outside world. I could feel a small slice of heaven right there at the center. Even though we went as a family(mom, dad,& Sisters) i was the only one totally interested in learning Raja Yoga. This "high" continued until i discovered boys at my school when i turned 16. So, by now i was pulled in 2 different directions either choose God, or Boys. This internal conflict continued until i finished high school, and by than our family had moved again to another city. I had lost touch with BK Gyan, brahamins, center, dhrana etc. By then i also started questioning what i read( BK litreature, Murli's) and know one was there to answer my questions, and before i knew it i slowly fizzled out from this path. A few years fast forward- one fine day while in college i wanted to start back on this path, went online to search for a BK center nearby and came across a PBK website..I was totally shocked to read many things especially in regards to the events taking place in the BK centers. How could this organization get so degraded, corrupt- robbing, fooling, and abusing people in the name of religion. I had no idea this was all going on since i was so out of touch with the center. I could now understand what Baba was talking about in the Murli's in reference to how God has to incarnate anytime there is degradation of religion. I kept in contact with a few PBKs through email, and finally decided to go to India for Bhatti( 7 day Advance Course) and to meet Baba - live in person. It was such an amazing journey to meet Baba in person and a lifetime experince. Finally, a lot of questions had been answered and i was able to understand the Gyan in depth..Here it's the ocean teaching himself and not some human guru!!!