I am an ex-BK of over 30 years and have recently found this forum. It saddens me that so many people have, like me, left the Brahma Kumaris.
The human psyche is a complex thing, for me at any rate. When I first went to Tennyson Road in London my life was a complete mess.
I studied for around 4 very stormy but very beneficial years.
Around two years ago I requested Murli's, previous to that I sent a stamped addressed envelope and there was no problem but now, possibly because of the activities on this website, my request was refused. There is more to this paragraph than I am saying so please take it with a pinch of salt.
I'd like to talk just a little about my experience and understanding of what Gyan is. It may not be that accurate but I hope it will be helpful to someone. The Knowledge is an expression of a great mind, a master creator. This person knows about things that few if any in the world know about. It is very high spiritual knowledge, perhaps the highest. It teaches how to think elevated thoughts and perform very good action. I love this knowledge and the people, but what made me leave? Me! As I said earlier I was in a mess when my study began.
Yes, I was angry with the BKs. Here was something I loved, that I wanted to progress in but it was becoming so painful that I was unable to continue. Who created this pain? It was me but unknowingly! Since I have winkled out some negative traits and complexes in my thought behaviour and subconscious. For example, the whiny archetypal Saboteur who stopped my effort making because it thought that what I was trying to do was too difficult. Also much guilt and doubt which seem to be energy turned back on itself - very painful! Self knowledge has for me been hard to come by, as are people whose entire lives are spent serving others and being interested in me.
In the physical world force can be a good thing, perspiration comes from hard physical work but in the mental world being very gentle and controlling one's attention is necessary. This lesson is taking me a lifetime to learn. It is through the thoughts that we think that we create our world. I create my world through emerging the positive and leaving the negative alone. My cup is always half full to overflowing. Thought should be a positive creative process. When the negative comes alarm bells ring!
Yes, I can see that there is no exit strategy for people leaving the BKs. I can also see that some people have what they perceive at present to be very negative experiences. The close proximity to very evolved beings can both ecstatic and painful as deep negativity is overcome. We are learning to face ourselves, often this is not easy. To be self-reliant is essential, hard at first but as time passes one would not have it any other way.
I do not criticise the Brahma Kumaris or others. Why? My reason is that I am responsible for my life and all that happens in it. Of course I could fault find, blame, curse or swear but what good will those thoughts or activities do me? If I am at fault is blaming others honest? Absolute honesty is a very rare commodity. To choose one's thoughts is rare, most notice thoughts at a point some way past the actual creation process. When I am unaware of much of my thought creation, how can I really be honest or judge aright?
So for me the bottom line is that I am my best friend or worst enemy.
Whether or not one belongs to an organisation one must create one's own life oneself. I have found that the BK training and experiences that came my way have stood the test of time in helping me do this.
Constructive criticism has its time and place and can be a very good thing.
Kindest regards to all,
John Morgan
The human psyche is a complex thing, for me at any rate. When I first went to Tennyson Road in London my life was a complete mess.
I studied for around 4 very stormy but very beneficial years.
Around two years ago I requested Murli's, previous to that I sent a stamped addressed envelope and there was no problem but now, possibly because of the activities on this website, my request was refused. There is more to this paragraph than I am saying so please take it with a pinch of salt.
I'd like to talk just a little about my experience and understanding of what Gyan is. It may not be that accurate but I hope it will be helpful to someone. The Knowledge is an expression of a great mind, a master creator. This person knows about things that few if any in the world know about. It is very high spiritual knowledge, perhaps the highest. It teaches how to think elevated thoughts and perform very good action. I love this knowledge and the people, but what made me leave? Me! As I said earlier I was in a mess when my study began.
Yes, I was angry with the BKs. Here was something I loved, that I wanted to progress in but it was becoming so painful that I was unable to continue. Who created this pain? It was me but unknowingly! Since I have winkled out some negative traits and complexes in my thought behaviour and subconscious. For example, the whiny archetypal Saboteur who stopped my effort making because it thought that what I was trying to do was too difficult. Also much guilt and doubt which seem to be energy turned back on itself - very painful! Self knowledge has for me been hard to come by, as are people whose entire lives are spent serving others and being interested in me.
In the physical world force can be a good thing, perspiration comes from hard physical work but in the mental world being very gentle and controlling one's attention is necessary. This lesson is taking me a lifetime to learn. It is through the thoughts that we think that we create our world. I create my world through emerging the positive and leaving the negative alone. My cup is always half full to overflowing. Thought should be a positive creative process. When the negative comes alarm bells ring!
Yes, I can see that there is no exit strategy for people leaving the BKs. I can also see that some people have what they perceive at present to be very negative experiences. The close proximity to very evolved beings can both ecstatic and painful as deep negativity is overcome. We are learning to face ourselves, often this is not easy. To be self-reliant is essential, hard at first but as time passes one would not have it any other way.
I do not criticise the Brahma Kumaris or others. Why? My reason is that I am responsible for my life and all that happens in it. Of course I could fault find, blame, curse or swear but what good will those thoughts or activities do me? If I am at fault is blaming others honest? Absolute honesty is a very rare commodity. To choose one's thoughts is rare, most notice thoughts at a point some way past the actual creation process. When I am unaware of much of my thought creation, how can I really be honest or judge aright?
So for me the bottom line is that I am my best friend or worst enemy.
Whether or not one belongs to an organisation one must create one's own life oneself. I have found that the BK training and experiences that came my way have stood the test of time in helping me do this.
Constructive criticism has its time and place and can be a very good thing.
Kindest regards to all,
John Morgan