After we had the Murli in our centre on the morning of the 9th, we had a little chit chat amongst ourselves and I said, “its amazing that we didn’t have an ounce of knowledge before we came to Baba and yet when we do have it we become like know it alls as if we are suddenly masters of knowledge”, and it prompted me to write this to you all.
This is not toward those people who are friends and family but its to those had a realisation and that now believe themselves to have been duped or tricked and claim the hierarchy is so destructive and the organisation doesn’t care about anyone. What I don’t understand is that many of the people on here received a lot of love to begin with when they first came to Baba or they were sustained by the love of others who had changed so much because of the love from Baba. I mean to say for those of you who stayed and went, there must have been a lot of love or something special apart from fear that Baba your spiritual Dad gave you, for you all to have belonged to Baba for whatever period you did.
I know everyone can give reasons why they went away but the closeness that you had at one time seems to have been forgotten and only things of anger or bitterness now stoke the flame. You guys that belonged to Baba are not weak minded, you surely know that you’ve just lost your peace because a negative sanskar of intolerance or an outside desire won you over and destroyed your internal happiness. And whats more you know that you can colour the vision of those that have never experienced the wonder of Baba because they will easily see only the negatives like being manipulated by the sun newspapers
It doesn’t matter what the BKWSU do or say to appease, it might effect your view a little but anger bitterness revenge will always win. it’s the internal negatives we should all deal with not the external. Look! If the BKs give Murlis out on the www, although some may take benefit and feel it is their right, look how many people are just waiting for the opportunity to take selective snippets and try to colour other peoples vision the same as their own. When lord Buddha was asked the same question by 3 different students he gave 3 different answers because each one had different coloured spectacles on ... So really I don’t understand where your all going with this stuff
When I came to Baba, the Sister in charge had a very bad reputation of manipulating others and gave so much sorrow. And what was worse her lokik husband, also BK, backed her up in everything. They gave others a lot of sorrow through their classes and chased a lot of people away from Baba. When I said anything I was told I had to change more. So I thought Yeah Baba would like that also and whats more I will not be at loss if I just aim to come closer to Baba. so change I did and I won the hearts of my instrument teachers. The others just came and went. I knew that if I turn away from anyone, one day I will turn away from Baba, because its my habit to run away or give up.
Its not a small thing because it meant when I was bubbling inside with anger and hatred I bit the bullet and made every effort to be closer to Baba and practised removing them from my mind, not speaking even 1 word of retaliation. If I didn’t drive them here there and everywhere they would give classes on me in front of others. If I said to them about disservice to others I was told to change more. I did as I was told and bowed down. I took the respect from Baba and turned away from the negatives outside. My love for and from Baba was immense at times. I tolerated, merged and it came easier for me to do this week by week. I kept looking for more depth in the Murli and ignored others praise.
I opened a centre. My centre of birth had taught me a lot of good and a lot of not so good. The centre that I ran gained a reputation of being extremely loving and many wanted to leave other centres to come to us. Then I relaxed on my study, fell for another BK left Baba became an alcoholic, a 60 a day smoker, a heavy gambler in a broken marriage (not the BK I went away with) .
It was in may 2007 that I e mailed Jayanti saying, I even find it hard to breath. She lovingly asked me to come to see Dadi, but I declined until I had got back my self respect ... And so I had the choice of studying that which id got so much from and come closer to Baba or studying what others are doing and spiralling downwards thus making God a dot on the horizon which actually he already was. I studied 9 hours a day for two months. On day one I stopped drinking and gambling and stopped watching tv and by day six I had stopped smoking. My body reacted badly to coming off it all, after all it had been abused for 13 years since falling into lust with the BK Sister. I said to Baba I can study but I cant remember you will it happen again for me??? I picked out a Murli from a batch that id got in Madhuban 18 years prior and Baba said if you cant remember me as the Father remember me as the teacher.
Within 3 months I returned to the centre I originally started and after 5 months I was giving lectures again ... And so ive seen it from both sides and know that the answer wisdom shouts at us is if something is going to make you as a mind more peaceless turn away and seek to bring out the good inside. don’t blame outside for that which festers inside. The accounts inside can be changed because we are all Babas children but at the end of the day he will say did you really help others move towards me and me alone. Yes everyone has weaknesses but happiness only comes from looking at the one who has no weaknesses. Whether it be our Dadis or the PBKs Dada, it just makes us body conscious and unhappy.
I always knew that the great mahabharat war is inside every human soul. The pandav part of us is the loving sweet kind caring side of us that treats victim and culprit the same ... The kaurav, the suspicious arrogant bitter twisted side of us and the yadav is the heavy intellectual that churns Gyan in a way that makes everyone outside view them in wonder but inside they battle. Swans on the outside, paddling like crazy underneath. Its our choice
Om Shanti
BK Newlife
This is not toward those people who are friends and family but its to those had a realisation and that now believe themselves to have been duped or tricked and claim the hierarchy is so destructive and the organisation doesn’t care about anyone. What I don’t understand is that many of the people on here received a lot of love to begin with when they first came to Baba or they were sustained by the love of others who had changed so much because of the love from Baba. I mean to say for those of you who stayed and went, there must have been a lot of love or something special apart from fear that Baba your spiritual Dad gave you, for you all to have belonged to Baba for whatever period you did.
I know everyone can give reasons why they went away but the closeness that you had at one time seems to have been forgotten and only things of anger or bitterness now stoke the flame. You guys that belonged to Baba are not weak minded, you surely know that you’ve just lost your peace because a negative sanskar of intolerance or an outside desire won you over and destroyed your internal happiness. And whats more you know that you can colour the vision of those that have never experienced the wonder of Baba because they will easily see only the negatives like being manipulated by the sun newspapers
It doesn’t matter what the BKWSU do or say to appease, it might effect your view a little but anger bitterness revenge will always win. it’s the internal negatives we should all deal with not the external. Look! If the BKs give Murlis out on the www, although some may take benefit and feel it is their right, look how many people are just waiting for the opportunity to take selective snippets and try to colour other peoples vision the same as their own. When lord Buddha was asked the same question by 3 different students he gave 3 different answers because each one had different coloured spectacles on ... So really I don’t understand where your all going with this stuff
When I came to Baba, the Sister in charge had a very bad reputation of manipulating others and gave so much sorrow. And what was worse her lokik husband, also BK, backed her up in everything. They gave others a lot of sorrow through their classes and chased a lot of people away from Baba. When I said anything I was told I had to change more. So I thought Yeah Baba would like that also and whats more I will not be at loss if I just aim to come closer to Baba. so change I did and I won the hearts of my instrument teachers. The others just came and went. I knew that if I turn away from anyone, one day I will turn away from Baba, because its my habit to run away or give up.
Its not a small thing because it meant when I was bubbling inside with anger and hatred I bit the bullet and made every effort to be closer to Baba and practised removing them from my mind, not speaking even 1 word of retaliation. If I didn’t drive them here there and everywhere they would give classes on me in front of others. If I said to them about disservice to others I was told to change more. I did as I was told and bowed down. I took the respect from Baba and turned away from the negatives outside. My love for and from Baba was immense at times. I tolerated, merged and it came easier for me to do this week by week. I kept looking for more depth in the Murli and ignored others praise.
I opened a centre. My centre of birth had taught me a lot of good and a lot of not so good. The centre that I ran gained a reputation of being extremely loving and many wanted to leave other centres to come to us. Then I relaxed on my study, fell for another BK left Baba became an alcoholic, a 60 a day smoker, a heavy gambler in a broken marriage (not the BK I went away with) .
It was in may 2007 that I e mailed Jayanti saying, I even find it hard to breath. She lovingly asked me to come to see Dadi, but I declined until I had got back my self respect ... And so I had the choice of studying that which id got so much from and come closer to Baba or studying what others are doing and spiralling downwards thus making God a dot on the horizon which actually he already was. I studied 9 hours a day for two months. On day one I stopped drinking and gambling and stopped watching tv and by day six I had stopped smoking. My body reacted badly to coming off it all, after all it had been abused for 13 years since falling into lust with the BK Sister. I said to Baba I can study but I cant remember you will it happen again for me??? I picked out a Murli from a batch that id got in Madhuban 18 years prior and Baba said if you cant remember me as the Father remember me as the teacher.
Within 3 months I returned to the centre I originally started and after 5 months I was giving lectures again ... And so ive seen it from both sides and know that the answer wisdom shouts at us is if something is going to make you as a mind more peaceless turn away and seek to bring out the good inside. don’t blame outside for that which festers inside. The accounts inside can be changed because we are all Babas children but at the end of the day he will say did you really help others move towards me and me alone. Yes everyone has weaknesses but happiness only comes from looking at the one who has no weaknesses. Whether it be our Dadis or the PBKs Dada, it just makes us body conscious and unhappy.
I always knew that the great mahabharat war is inside every human soul. The pandav part of us is the loving sweet kind caring side of us that treats victim and culprit the same ... The kaurav, the suspicious arrogant bitter twisted side of us and the yadav is the heavy intellectual that churns Gyan in a way that makes everyone outside view them in wonder but inside they battle. Swans on the outside, paddling like crazy underneath. Its our choice
Om Shanti
BK Newlife