Hi everyone. First of all I want to apologize for my English as it is not my mother tongue and I am still not perfect in it.
I am very glad to find this forum and it answered many question for me. Thank you all for the work and research that you've done here.
Here is my story. My mother became BK in 1990 and after 1 year I became inspired and joined the 1 month introduction course. I was 13 at the time. After 8 years I left. It was very tough to do. Didi in charge tryed her best to pull me back by making phone calls, sending me sweets, gifts through my Mom.
I felt so much guilt for being traitor and not fulfilling all those promises that I made in all those years to Baba. But I just couldn't be there any more. First couple of year were really difficult, I had to adopt to lokik world and remove all the hooks of BKWSU out of me. I think I made it and I was enjoying my life and my job. 3 years ago I got married and love every day of my married life. This makes my mother very unhappy as she hears in Murlis that marriage is the worst thing that can happen to Kumari.
She is still a regular BK, she does simple physical service everyday in Yagya and has a part time lokik job. Now she wants to give our 2 bedroom flat we both own to BKWSU. Since I don't live in it and in Russia at the time being, she insists I should give her the rights on my half of the property. I love my Mom I have only good wished for her. She is practising detachment when I phone her she will hear but not listen as the famous yukti says. I understand how much pressure is there in Yagya for surrendering properties but knowing where money will go I totally disagree.
In one of our conversations she clearly told me that she wants to finish all the financial and physical relations with me. That was so hurtful for me that I said I'll go to press and tell them how BKWSU break families. Which is, BTW, 100% true. She said if I do so it will be defamation, anti-service and I'll be punished by serious illness. I did not go to newspapers etc but after 6 months I fell very seriously ill. I don't know if it is pure coincidence or I've been punished.
During my treatment Mom never came to visit me but we were keeping in touch. As soon as radiotherapy finished she started again this property talks. I've not agreed to dividing or giving up our flat but offered to sell it and buy identical one very near Lighthouse (name of the centre she goes) to make her life easier. After sometime she agreed to it. As she will turn 60 soon there might come a time when she will not be able to do physical service and if she surrenders her property as well she will of no use to BKWSU and will be left out at her old age. My family and I will be more than happy to have her with us but she clearly made me understand that it is not an option for her as we all are impure and shudras.
Dear friends I would appreciate your help and suggestion or just support. Once again my apologies for my English and maybe I've written my story in too many details. I would be happy to reveal my identity if not my Mom could get into trouble in her centre where Didi in charge is extremely strict.
But if it will be of any help I can share my experience of being in Gyan as a teenager, why I left and how the Russian Yagya was.
Thank you.
I am very glad to find this forum and it answered many question for me. Thank you all for the work and research that you've done here.
Here is my story. My mother became BK in 1990 and after 1 year I became inspired and joined the 1 month introduction course. I was 13 at the time. After 8 years I left. It was very tough to do. Didi in charge tryed her best to pull me back by making phone calls, sending me sweets, gifts through my Mom.
I felt so much guilt for being traitor and not fulfilling all those promises that I made in all those years to Baba. But I just couldn't be there any more. First couple of year were really difficult, I had to adopt to lokik world and remove all the hooks of BKWSU out of me. I think I made it and I was enjoying my life and my job. 3 years ago I got married and love every day of my married life. This makes my mother very unhappy as she hears in Murlis that marriage is the worst thing that can happen to Kumari.
She is still a regular BK, she does simple physical service everyday in Yagya and has a part time lokik job. Now she wants to give our 2 bedroom flat we both own to BKWSU. Since I don't live in it and in Russia at the time being, she insists I should give her the rights on my half of the property. I love my Mom I have only good wished for her. She is practising detachment when I phone her she will hear but not listen as the famous yukti says. I understand how much pressure is there in Yagya for surrendering properties but knowing where money will go I totally disagree.
In one of our conversations she clearly told me that she wants to finish all the financial and physical relations with me. That was so hurtful for me that I said I'll go to press and tell them how BKWSU break families. Which is, BTW, 100% true. She said if I do so it will be defamation, anti-service and I'll be punished by serious illness. I did not go to newspapers etc but after 6 months I fell very seriously ill. I don't know if it is pure coincidence or I've been punished.
During my treatment Mom never came to visit me but we were keeping in touch. As soon as radiotherapy finished she started again this property talks. I've not agreed to dividing or giving up our flat but offered to sell it and buy identical one very near Lighthouse (name of the centre she goes) to make her life easier. After sometime she agreed to it. As she will turn 60 soon there might come a time when she will not be able to do physical service and if she surrenders her property as well she will of no use to BKWSU and will be left out at her old age. My family and I will be more than happy to have her with us but she clearly made me understand that it is not an option for her as we all are impure and shudras.
Dear friends I would appreciate your help and suggestion or just support. Once again my apologies for my English and maybe I've written my story in too many details. I would be happy to reveal my identity if not my Mom could get into trouble in her centre where Didi in charge is extremely strict.
But if it will be of any help I can share my experience of being in Gyan as a teenager, why I left and how the Russian Yagya was.
Thank you.