ex-l, I would like to say that it was probably both. I can pick up thought processes but I think an active channeling or "overshadowing" (I have never heard this term before) was definitely involved. I want to add something else to this post that has occured recently.
Since I have basically been retreating from everything for the last six months, and have been minimally exposed to both the BKs and the world itself, it has enabled me to live in a being state that at times made me feel like I was wasting my life, and at other times I realized that I was clearing out stuff. I have been vegetarian for a long time and last year my hair started to fall out, and I was always tired and moody. I was also getting sick a lot. So I started to take vitamins and minerals and slowly but surely everything returned to normal. I even started to nibble at fish and meat but secretively because I am not ready to let on about these changes to my family.
Last week an ex-BK Sister who is a good friend told me that a clairvoyant told her she was possessed by a force she had felt in her energy field. Two other psychics confirmed it too. We both had a similar experience while we were in Gyan that an overcharge of energy blew some fuses in our nervous systems which caused us to shake uncontrollably. I could no longer take drishti as my entire body would begin to shake. Thankfully, my shaking stopped after a few months but it's been over ten years for my friend. One of the psychics finally removed the "force" from her energy field and she says that within a few days she was much better. I immediately related to this so I planned to do the same thing with the psychic. But since I have a pretty strong psychic connection myself, I decided to try a meditation on my own to lead the "force" to the light and to kindly ask it to leave me be. A few days later I found this forum. Is it a coincidence? I then emailed my center and kindly asked them to stop sending me the Murli points because this was no longer the right path for me.
It is trure that this forum brings up the past and reliving all these stories by sharing them can be a bit difficult. But it is important to share our experiences as we must heal and we must understand what has happened to us. It is better to do it now than to wake up in another ten years feeling even worse.
When I met the BKs I did not want to live in this world anymore. I had gone through some major heartbreak and felt that if this was what the world had to offer then I did not want any part of it. I was not afraid to die. I just stopped eating. Then I met the BKs and was "saved." So in effect, I did not end up living in this world but in the BK world and in some other dimension for a long time, avoiding relationships and social events and sitting with Baba as much as I could. It is only now that I realize that I must go back to the world and live a normal life again.
I still have time to get remarried if I choose to and even have a child but I cannot wait any longer. Even though this has always been my wish, I was convinced that there was no point in doing anything anymore since the world was just a mess and would be ending soon anyway. I would like to get back to work and get my life back and try to face my fears. I have not lived in a center and have always had my physical freedom, but what I am talking about is psychological and emotional freedom.
Since I have basically been retreating from everything for the last six months, and have been minimally exposed to both the BKs and the world itself, it has enabled me to live in a being state that at times made me feel like I was wasting my life, and at other times I realized that I was clearing out stuff. I have been vegetarian for a long time and last year my hair started to fall out, and I was always tired and moody. I was also getting sick a lot. So I started to take vitamins and minerals and slowly but surely everything returned to normal. I even started to nibble at fish and meat but secretively because I am not ready to let on about these changes to my family.
Last week an ex-BK Sister who is a good friend told me that a clairvoyant told her she was possessed by a force she had felt in her energy field. Two other psychics confirmed it too. We both had a similar experience while we were in Gyan that an overcharge of energy blew some fuses in our nervous systems which caused us to shake uncontrollably. I could no longer take drishti as my entire body would begin to shake. Thankfully, my shaking stopped after a few months but it's been over ten years for my friend. One of the psychics finally removed the "force" from her energy field and she says that within a few days she was much better. I immediately related to this so I planned to do the same thing with the psychic. But since I have a pretty strong psychic connection myself, I decided to try a meditation on my own to lead the "force" to the light and to kindly ask it to leave me be. A few days later I found this forum. Is it a coincidence? I then emailed my center and kindly asked them to stop sending me the Murli points because this was no longer the right path for me.
It is trure that this forum brings up the past and reliving all these stories by sharing them can be a bit difficult. But it is important to share our experiences as we must heal and we must understand what has happened to us. It is better to do it now than to wake up in another ten years feeling even worse.
When I met the BKs I did not want to live in this world anymore. I had gone through some major heartbreak and felt that if this was what the world had to offer then I did not want any part of it. I was not afraid to die. I just stopped eating. Then I met the BKs and was "saved." So in effect, I did not end up living in this world but in the BK world and in some other dimension for a long time, avoiding relationships and social events and sitting with Baba as much as I could. It is only now that I realize that I must go back to the world and live a normal life again.
I still have time to get remarried if I choose to and even have a child but I cannot wait any longer. Even though this has always been my wish, I was convinced that there was no point in doing anything anymore since the world was just a mess and would be ending soon anyway. I would like to get back to work and get my life back and try to face my fears. I have not lived in a center and have always had my physical freedom, but what I am talking about is psychological and emotional freedom.