Dear Meghna,
You are now in a very attractive situation, a juicy prey for the BKs. They will run after you, will surrender you with their "caring" and "loving" attitude, invite you to their "peaceful" and "clean" centers = ashrams, feed you with delicious self cooked food, listen to your problems with a fake empathy and show you a fake friendship, let you sit and do some meditation with open eyes looking at the dot in the center of the poster hanging on the wall. In the background a calming music.
They will invite you to their 7 Days Course. They will tell you to forget about your friend because love and sex is the greatest sin. They will tell you that God is coming to them since 70 years and telling them that lust is the greatest sin, that you should only love God and no human beings.
To help humanity, and to become a pure angel like their Seniors, they will tell you that you should get detached from all your loving relationships, from your parents, Sisters and other family members and friends.They will tell you in time that TV, cinema, reading books, nice clothings, all sorts of sports including swimming, any friendships even with the BKs, eating anything cooked from anybody outside of the center, as ex-l said eating your mom's food, all are considered impure and are not approved. You have to forget about your dreams of having children one day.
To become a future queen in the Golden Age, after Destruction of the world you should forget about all these worldly "sinful" attachments and surrender your bones to the "God" of the BKs, which means to the spook which gives messages through their medium. This so called "God" allows the BKs no education, no joy, no love, no care and friendship, even not to save money for their own future because "Baba=God" needs their money; and there is no future for the BKs, "Destruction can happen any minute".
But the BK Seniors are allowed to fly first class around the globe, to stay in expensive hotels, they let the followers buy luxury real estates as centers or retreat centers, the Seniors are allowed to say all sorts of lies, to abuse their followers' faith, to take all their money and create accounts with incredible amounts of pounds (take a look into Library
BK Financial), and they are allowed to abuse whole energy and life of the BKs for the growth of their own power.
When you start to come and go to the center they will ask you for some little help in center's daily life to get you under their influence, they will let you do some work like giving out some leaflets, some small help in the kitchen, and will show you great understanding, love and care- all fake of course- so that you will feel yourself in your real "family" and forget about your parents, your family and friends.
Once you are trapped and surrendered and even start to live in the ashram you are lost. You have to get up at 04:00 a.m, after shower you have to start to cook for the niwassis and the BKs. After 06:00 a.m Murli class and breakfast you will have to do cleaning,ironing and kitchen work until afternoon when you will be allowed few hours to rest and then the work for the evening class will start until midnight.
You will have to go sometimes at 01:00 to bed and have to get up at 04:00 and day after day you will forget who you are, you will forget your dreams about life, your ideals, your hobbies, love, joy, friendship of your old friends, love of your family, even your favorite music, dressing properly and being proud of your body. You will become one of the BK zombies with fake smile and a lie in your mouth that you are happy. This happened to several hundred thousand BKs, to most of us here in this forum.
ex-l wrote:all you seem to be wanting to do is hurt yourself, hurt your parents and escape him.
I agree. Your interest in the BKs seems like wanting to punish yourself and all your beloved ones.
There are so many healthy and good options for you now, like working. Yes, earning your own money and staying on your own feet. You can save your money for your future, or travel and see how life is in other continents and enjoy being independent, healthy and alive and not under the control and brainwash of a sect.
I am sure, you will meet soon a very loving and caring partner, who will not talk this stupid caste thing, and will carry his responsibilities as a man.