My relationship with God now
Posted: 06 Dec 2009
Hello everyone,
I have just found and joined this site today and have spent HOURS reading the posts. It has been comforting and enlightening to discover that I am not 'alone' in my post-BK feelings and experiences, and that my feeling of needing to be deprogrammed is not unique. I was 'in' for 10 years and have been 'out' now for 7.
When I first left, I wanted nothing to do with anything spiritual. Since I had believed so commitedly that it was God's path, I felt betrayed by God himself because of awful experiences I had with other BKs and the supposed leaders. I am just now beginning to heal completely and to seek out my spiritual power (alone!), but have trouble meditating and thinking of God in a way that is not BK. I want that relationship with God that has been important to me my whole life again, but am a bit clueless as to how to heal it, and embrace it in a new and non-BK way.
I don't know if this has been talked about in a forum before, but your experiences will be valuable and appreciated.
I have just found and joined this site today and have spent HOURS reading the posts. It has been comforting and enlightening to discover that I am not 'alone' in my post-BK feelings and experiences, and that my feeling of needing to be deprogrammed is not unique. I was 'in' for 10 years and have been 'out' now for 7.
When I first left, I wanted nothing to do with anything spiritual. Since I had believed so commitedly that it was God's path, I felt betrayed by God himself because of awful experiences I had with other BKs and the supposed leaders. I am just now beginning to heal completely and to seek out my spiritual power (alone!), but have trouble meditating and thinking of God in a way that is not BK. I want that relationship with God that has been important to me my whole life again, but am a bit clueless as to how to heal it, and embrace it in a new and non-BK way.
I don't know if this has been talked about in a forum before, but your experiences will be valuable and appreciated.