Hello, decided to join this forum today. Feel like being in touch with other human with the experience of leavimg the BKs and BK lifestyle.
Was reading through lots and lots of the forum and documents during the last days.
Did stop a lot of the practices quite long ago - like Amrit Vela, offering food etc and do have good working friendships outside the BKs - very glad and astonished to have that after reading through the forum. Also feel rather calm and just ready to live a normal live, just being me. It was interesting, I woke up on Sunday morning last week and new my time is over, won't go to class anymore and it was a very comforting feeling. And so this is what I did plus stopping contibutions and joining this forum today.
At the same time I find myself sad to leave people I spend so much time with in the last years. Also find myself anxious when I think about "announcing" my exit. On the one hand, I would like to just be clear about my decision and not have people ask for me and telling them one by one but then also I "know" that they wont be able to understand - not whist they are in ... Could not really find posts on how others handled this matter.
Maybe someone is happy to give thougts or can point out to be where this has already been discussed? Thank you.
English is not my first language, by the way, so please, apologies for my spelling but the effort of writing in English to take part in this exchange of freemind human being might at last be the right kind of effort :-).
Was reading through lots and lots of the forum and documents during the last days.
Did stop a lot of the practices quite long ago - like Amrit Vela, offering food etc and do have good working friendships outside the BKs - very glad and astonished to have that after reading through the forum. Also feel rather calm and just ready to live a normal live, just being me. It was interesting, I woke up on Sunday morning last week and new my time is over, won't go to class anymore and it was a very comforting feeling. And so this is what I did plus stopping contibutions and joining this forum today.
At the same time I find myself sad to leave people I spend so much time with in the last years. Also find myself anxious when I think about "announcing" my exit. On the one hand, I would like to just be clear about my decision and not have people ask for me and telling them one by one but then also I "know" that they wont be able to understand - not whist they are in ... Could not really find posts on how others handled this matter.
Maybe someone is happy to give thougts or can point out to be where this has already been discussed? Thank you.
English is not my first language, by the way, so please, apologies for my spelling but the effort of writing in English to take part in this exchange of freemind human being might at last be the right kind of effort :-).