Your sincerity is not in question, the relevance of it all is.
If the simple answer is you've gone back to, or found solace in, Christianity, then fair enough but fixing its problems is really not our business here ... unless you are going to go into how, perhaps, Judeo-Christian/Catholic indoctrination was the 'gateway drug' to BKism, or draw parallels or suggest influences between the two, e.g. Lekhraj Kirpalani picking up on Christianity's End Times, Angels and monotheism etc. I suspect the latter.
The Bible is a horrendous read ... and from a culture entirely alien to me. Along with the Koran, I think its primary benefit is as cheap toilet paper and reefer material for prison inmates. I could not recommend it to anyone. It's not even a "book", just a random hotch-potch few of its victims even ever knowing what it contained as it was written in an exclusive language they could not understand. A blunt club to held in one hand of power, while the sword or gun was held in the other.
How anyone can believe it, or the Sakar Murlis for that matter, are "of God" is beyond me now.
Tying into the
Black consciousness topic, you might draw correlation between the viciously discriminatory views of the Jews for non-Jews, to who Christianity then perceived and treated, e.g. Africans and Native North and especially South Americans but, again, I don't think that's a component relevant to BKism.
BKism's discriminatory view of the whole of the rest of the world as impure, untouchable "Shudras" is pure and all other religions degraded, is hard baked Brahmanic Hinduism. It was not an area the documentary we were discussing above went into, as it was pushing its own Christian agenda, but the 'superior us' and 'inferior them' attitude is pretty much universal within all cultic groups.
We could discuss why and what uses it has.