Next questions: how was it? Did you experience much guilt? Was it a one night stand type of thing or was it a relationship? How long did it last? Was the quality of the sexual experience more fullfilling than the ones you had with lokiks? If so, where you able to sustain it? And if yes, how? Did you feel rejection from the Father or impossibility to have Yoga because of such physical (and incestuous!!! ) activity ?
Some BKs and ex-BKs seem to have durable relationships with each other, even surviving the fall from the fifth floor. Can they still find each other attractive, after the blackening from the snake poison? Is it that somehow lust really burns everything out quickly and only ashes are left over ?
I will answer to all of these questions myself. But not right now, and maybe in another topic. I officially from here curse the Shudra devil who took my ex-BK love and supposedely tantric partner, away into the realm of deep darkness and hardcore sex. I am joking, of course, no body, not even satan in person , can snatch anyone away, unless the soul is willing to go along!! In Bhakti, they talk about temptations but self sovereign souls ( or ex such) make choices.
Supnaka sends love from the heart chakra to all the souls who have the courage - and maybe the madness! - to go beyond denial and cross the line of protection, experimenting with honesty in the field of physical attraction. Empowering good wishes to those who have the courage to post.