As a child being brought up with the influence of the Brahma Kumaris World Spiritual University, having a partner was a no-no, getting married was out of the question and having children, well, we were told that why bring more children into the world when Destruction is going to take place anyway? We were also told that we should make ShivBaba (the Supreme Soul) our husband/wife or Bride/Bridegroom. We were told that we should forge all our relationships with the One. That way, you won't feel like you're missing out on anything in life. However, the more I think about this, the more it makes me realise what a load of rubbish that was!!
I don't know about others on this forum, but the more I reflect on this, the more I think that to have a partner, get married and have children etc is quite a biologically natural thing to do in life as a human being. Unfortunately, as i was heavily conditioned in all these aspects that the Brahma Kumaris preached and dictated to me since a very, very young age, I personally have missed out on all of these. To date, I am really really struggling to even think about having a partner never mind anything else. I get the feeling that no one is going to understand me for who I am. No one is going to understand what it means to have lived a celibate life to date. Who is going to respect and accept me for who I am? I feel so messed up not having been able to lead a normal life as a child, adolescent etc.
Coming out of the Brahma Kumaris Organisation has been a blessing in disguise. I am a lot happier with many aspects of my life, however, this side of me is extremely frustrated as I feel I have missed out on a number of things which I should have done when I was much much younger. The older I become (physically), the more complex it feels to now explore having a partner, having a relationship, let alone having kids.
My social life revolved around the BKs and their dogma and so I never really got to experience living a normal social life. It's an area in my life with which I am still struggling and trying to come to terms with.
Has anyone else had similar frustrations in their life as a result of the BK doctrination? If so, how do you go about dealing with your frustration?
Thanks, Enlightened
I don't know about others on this forum, but the more I reflect on this, the more I think that to have a partner, get married and have children etc is quite a biologically natural thing to do in life as a human being. Unfortunately, as i was heavily conditioned in all these aspects that the Brahma Kumaris preached and dictated to me since a very, very young age, I personally have missed out on all of these. To date, I am really really struggling to even think about having a partner never mind anything else. I get the feeling that no one is going to understand me for who I am. No one is going to understand what it means to have lived a celibate life to date. Who is going to respect and accept me for who I am? I feel so messed up not having been able to lead a normal life as a child, adolescent etc.
Coming out of the Brahma Kumaris Organisation has been a blessing in disguise. I am a lot happier with many aspects of my life, however, this side of me is extremely frustrated as I feel I have missed out on a number of things which I should have done when I was much much younger. The older I become (physically), the more complex it feels to now explore having a partner, having a relationship, let alone having kids.
My social life revolved around the BKs and their dogma and so I never really got to experience living a normal social life. It's an area in my life with which I am still struggling and trying to come to terms with.
Has anyone else had similar frustrations in their life as a result of the BK doctrination? If so, how do you go about dealing with your frustration?
Thanks, Enlightened