13 Aug 2008
Dear Paulkershaw soul,
Yesterday, when good relation between you and me was established, I thought of retiring permanently from this forum to have a happy end hence praised ex-l soul more than what that soul deserves. But after that, I thought better to disclose what I assessed ex-l soul. According to my judgement, ex-l soul is like -
1) When a guest visits our home, we give seat and welcome warmly. But ex-l’s interaction is like shaking the person and trying to force that person to behave as she desires. Before opening the mouth, that soul will try to hit his/her head force (or happens) to utter something that he does not like. It looks like as though it is a restless soul that has no peace. It demands truth or peace, but also allergetic to these to a high extent.
2) Another thing I noticed is, perhaps that soul has a tendency to take revenge. Otherwise, there was no need of chasing me everywhere.
3) But the positive thing is- That soul is highly intellectual and can supply a lot many information, many things may be rubbish, or misleading, but something will be useful.
4) When that soul got tired of chasing me in accurate thread, it gave me a private message, which I am not disclosing here. But I did not try to hurt it by any means.
5) To check the attitude of that soul and to keep the forum cool, I just wrote (pretendingly), “One thing I noticed is, even when I was shouting at PBKs, they were calm” in some thread. She gave a highly positive response about me.
6) But later, when she found that I cannot be able to be tuned to her frequency, she tried by all means to suppress me. I did a mistake by responding more than needed to her quotes.
7) Actually I do not want to comment personally anybody, because the biggest aim is to forget name and form of everybody including the self. Nothing will irritate me for more than a minute because I treat everybody as an actor in this drama. I think it is not a mistake from my side to comment that soul since that soul has commented me like anything everywhere. Since initially I had not read quotes of anybody in the forum, I could not guess the value of ex-l soul in this forum. ex-l soul’s behavior with me was like a boss with a subordinate. This made me to consider ex-l as the Admin.
8) Can you find a single mistake in my initial quotes? When many members of the forum came to hit my head (I do not get right words, excuse me), then also I did not show any negative reaction at all. But when it continued, then I had defended.
9) Assume that trees consisting of mangoes (knowledgeful people) are less. If one throws 100 stones (numerous questions) each at 1000 different trees (many people in the forum), and one hits at the mango, it is not great. Similarly, I do not say, it is ex-l soul who brought best in me. If chance was given, I could have come up smoothly. But it would take more time. Hence I am grateful to that soul.
10) I would like to thank Arjun soul for a Murli point he quoted which helped to cool down the forum at most important time.
But, later I thought that if I felt in future coming back to the forum after a break, I replied the above, so that this topic does not remain incomplete.
In fact, I have no(or do not wish to have) limited feelings. Hence all the above is waste! I see everybody as a soul, an actor in this drama.