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rayoflight wrote:She said it wasn't her but me. I thought how could that be?
rayoflight wrote:The teachings would have all been fine if after that they just allowed us to be ourselves
More importantly though, I am starting to see my own weaknesses more clearly, the ones that may have been responsible for the dependence I developed which NONE of their courses could have ever healed simply because they were nurturing them!
leela wrote:In some ways I can make less and less sense of who the BKs are and what my experience there was all about. But re-examining it from today's perspective is proving very fruitful for life today.
Well, it seems that many of us did not want to be "ourselves" when we came. Speaking for myself, I was on the run from myself and the BKs were a welcome refuge. But it was a growing frustration with this lack of human reality that took me out again.
paulkershaw wrote:It's not possible to be a questioning BK" - in terms of the BKWSU codes of living, you're either a BK or you're not, and any 'questioning' one does outside of the teachings puts one on the outskirts of the Yagya. BK life is either something one totally dives into or if there are questions is then never truly a Brahma Kumar/i (Brahmin would probably be the term they would use ...).
Rayoflight wrote:The "fire of Yoga" was such a great concept. The more Yoga I did the more I thought I was becoming clean and pure of all my sins and shame and what not. But all it did was turn me into a zombie and neutralize my personality like erasing me with an eraser.
The term 'instrument' takes on a sinister connotation.
I have to face the fact that I've exposed myself to psychic manipulation from beyond the human level.
experienced only a sort of happiness which came to me from the spooks as a bait so that I would become more obedient.
rayoflight wrote:Nobody should be allowed to manipulate others with psychic energy. That is simply unethical and definitely NOT God's work. But that is what the BKs do to pull people in. I know because I learned how to do it myself and I do not approve of it in the least. Interfering with people's minds is downright wrong.
jannisder wrote wrote:How, and what did you learn to pull people in???
rayoflight wrote:I was able to put my thoughts, that is my will, into other people's minds ...
alladin wrote: I would not generalize claiming that ALL Seniors have pure motives ... doesn't take decades of meditation to become kind and gentle ... Is it such a big deal to be a nice person and to respect others? I wouldn't call souls who are cynical and give sorrow, who misuse their powers, elevated, nor enlightened ... not white magicians, just the opposite.