Like Bert said in the, "Why you joined?" topic, my experience at personal meetings with BapDada, his subtle presence in MB and Baba's hut and room especially, always gave me the feeling of benevolence. Syncronicity with questions I asked and answers I got in Murlis comforted me and confirmed that Baba was aware of all the injustices and "wrongdoings" going on. Was it my imagination?
How to fit the spooks possibility and perceptions some have with my personal positive experience? There maybe some interference somewhere and I don't even believe all BKs and SS are benevolent. Sometimes there's an authoritaristic tone in the Murlis, or it seems as if BapDada, or whoever, is playing with our minds, with contradicting statements and directions. Esoteric stuff .
Overall, I always felt that the spirit behind the Avyakt Murli especially, was a great conniosseur of human psychology. And a sort of Gandalf, white magician. I think he's behind our Forum also. So, I am waiting to see what will happen.
The corollary around Baba's meetings degenerated, got out of hand. Feeding Baba, and the procession of big shot BKs and VIPS got out of proportion and nauseated many of us. The photos on stage (photographing what ... a spirit!?!), later the videoing and so on. This opens the door to doubts.
Big tests the paraphernalia is!