I don't know whether this topic was started as a Sisters only space, if not, maybe we should cut one out specifically some time soon.
I always felt that in the genderless holy BK org, there was no chance to share any women's feelings, as all of that 's taboo. Even a natural thing such as " Do we have any frustrated maternal instincts" our specific way of being in Gyan and interpret our role, or whatever, was never spoken about. As we cut ourselves out from our lokik girlfriends because of our totally different choices and lifestyle, we become isolated and at the same time our women feelings are still underneath, as sanskars don't disappear overnite. But we cannot talk with anybody except for incorporeal God and go and cry in his arms when needed. Shaktis are connected with Shiva, but are a group (9 of them or 7, in the scriptures?)
So when we look at women's stories we see that especially spiritual inclined women are always the vulnerable ones who "love too much", the motherly sanskar of "Mercy". I admit that sometimes I envy ladies who learnt the male habit of "using and throwing away". But that's not us, is it?
Meeting "spiritual" men, we lower our defences for later discovering that they are often disfunctional, not clear, manipulative and giving mixed messages or having hidden agendas. They are often transferring the typical lokik male defects in the alokik, just wearing white clothes. I am not giving any solution, I just value the sharing amongst women and empathize at the moment.
One thing I wanted to ask, and I hope Arjun or some Hindi speaking soul can clarify: what does Baba mean when he says we should only have "superficial" love with human souls, and that all our deep love should be for Baba? Superficial sounds terrible, in the West, but maybe I've just been given a lesson on how we should not open our heart to any humans in Kaliyug. What a pity, what a bitter pill to be swollen, the one of detachment!
I always felt that in the genderless holy BK org, there was no chance to share any women's feelings, as all of that 's taboo. Even a natural thing such as " Do we have any frustrated maternal instincts" our specific way of being in Gyan and interpret our role, or whatever, was never spoken about. As we cut ourselves out from our lokik girlfriends because of our totally different choices and lifestyle, we become isolated and at the same time our women feelings are still underneath, as sanskars don't disappear overnite. But we cannot talk with anybody except for incorporeal God and go and cry in his arms when needed. Shaktis are connected with Shiva, but are a group (9 of them or 7, in the scriptures?)
So when we look at women's stories we see that especially spiritual inclined women are always the vulnerable ones who "love too much", the motherly sanskar of "Mercy". I admit that sometimes I envy ladies who learnt the male habit of "using and throwing away". But that's not us, is it?
Meeting "spiritual" men, we lower our defences for later discovering that they are often disfunctional, not clear, manipulative and giving mixed messages or having hidden agendas. They are often transferring the typical lokik male defects in the alokik, just wearing white clothes. I am not giving any solution, I just value the sharing amongst women and empathize at the moment.
One thing I wanted to ask, and I hope Arjun or some Hindi speaking soul can clarify: what does Baba mean when he says we should only have "superficial" love with human souls, and that all our deep love should be for Baba? Superficial sounds terrible, in the West, but maybe I've just been given a lesson on how we should not open our heart to any humans in Kaliyug. What a pity, what a bitter pill to be swollen, the one of detachment!