Being an effort-making BK posting on this site I sometimes find myself beset by a sort of melancholy (sobering thoughtfulness) that tends to hover around me for a little while before i feel able to snap out of it. Right now I am such a phase and were it the case that i had my record collection to hand I would create a soundscape of what these feelings are like by selecting this song as performed by Bobby Womack. The lyrics do not allude to BKWSU Godly Student life in any obvious way (except for me) but from the soulful manner in which Bobby sings the song one can vision a clear picture of Harry and Mary Hippie, down on their luck, while the world except for Bobby walks right on-by completely blind to the their existence. Is this how we are trained to be as BKs?
In this post I am exploring again the "what's pulling me away theme" and this time I can identify a growing disillusionment with the way that we BKs seem to 'be' as BKs. Yes, I admit that it is foolish of me to think that this website matters a jot in the scheme of things so my posting here is a matter of my business and i ought not to be looking out for or forward to any participation of my BKWSU Brothers or Sisters. But since in the main they are unable to share these experiences with us in-house are they really family?
Recently I have come to know that there are some 'thinking' BKs in the organisation. BKs that visit this site - and it is a joy to meet and share with them even though they remain ignorant of just who I am - but I am afraid that we are far too outnumbered for our spur of the moment chit-chats to be anything more than stiffled howls at the moon! Consequently the day after our chats we find ourselves sat again in class listening to the Murli and all the BKWSU oblox. It sucks. So part of my Godly Student Life i dedicate to this place as a God-loving soul. A love for God that the BKWSU DID NOT implant within me!
And you know what? I do not want any children/young adults that I know of to be exposed to this BKWSU nonsense anymore! The adults can do just what the hell they like but children ought to be spared from having their mind's twassed-up in the way that we KNOW some of the BKWSU teachings do! ... And I have a clear idea about which children are gonna be taken off of that BKWSU pyre of God only knows what first!
Therefore if God knows that there is a way to stay inside and get some of the concerns raised on this site heard AND resolved then I sure will co-operate, otherwise I will remain "Abrahma, the cyberspace BK" and I will write to my hearts content. As BM sang: "I and I no come to fight flesh and blood but spiritual wickedness in high and low places, ay ay". I quote those words not from a standpoint of moral superiority or greater wisdom than anyone (there are many many BKs more pukka than I and/or are more qualified on the basis of compliance with Shrimat and all the other BK oblox than I will ever be; and i respect them for that but I do not feel inferior to them.) But where are they? How can i take a BK public service platform knowing that as my BK-colleagues smile with me and congratulate me as a 'good Baba's instrument' they themselves are primarily concerned about themselves and the advancement of the Mothership BKWSU.
So if you meet me on the street and ask, "AbeK, what's pulling you away? I will answer emphatically: "Love for the children".
OS